So here we are at the end of Aug. wow this year is just flying by. I found my real dad and there was mixed feelings there. But once I talked to him I was so glad that I did. It was like when I found my mom, I was not sure how to go about building a relationship with someone that had never been apart of my life. With my dad he was a part of my life but not always in good ways. But he has admitted where he was wrong and he is trying to make amends with me for the things that were not right in our lives. I am blessed now to say that I have both of my parents in my life even if one of them is very sick and may not be with me long. I will get to rebuild a relationship with him for the time that I do have with him. Our car is almost fixed which means that I will be able to get a lot more stuff done like going back to church. Not having a car is a big inconvenience. But we got by and did what we had to do.
We are still waiting on word from INS to go in a get re finger printed and another picture taken so that Alex can get his work permit. Through all of this I am defiantly learning to have a lot more patients. With patients comes virtue and with virtue comes happiness. That is something that I am learning to be a lot more of. It feels good to look at things in a positive way and enjoy things around me. My meds are working and I am not as down as I used to be which is a good thing.
Kaleb has been working with Saint Josephs home and went in for a med som app. They are doing his blood work and an EKG but are going to put him on meds. I was kinda leery about that but after the Doctor explained to me that she is very surprised that the pediatrician has not put him on meds to help control the anger before this, and that I have done great as a parent in getting him this far with Asburgers and not having him anything but melatonin.
Katie was so excited to start school at home and then was the first one to have a melt down over it. I thought that it would have been Kaleb but it was not it was Katie. Now that it is over with we are on to learning. Kaleb loves being taught at home, I am so glad to because I thought he was going to be the one to not adjust to this, but it is giving us more one on one time and that is something that I have needed to start doing with all of my kids. Next week we are going to be starting behavior charts for all of the kids. They ave learned not to call each other stupid any more. I put the five dollar rule in to place. If you call some one stupid in my presence you then owe me five dollars Kourtnie got up to fifteen and so did Katie. Now I know some may say five dollars is a lot of money that was the point to get them to have pay heavily for their actions. What is a quarter or a dime going to do to hurt them? Nothing but the five dollars will. After the third time with both of them it has been working. Kaleb herd five dollars and I have not one time herd him say the word. Now I am sure they may say it when I am not around but the goal is to get them where they do not say it all weather I am around or not.
So I no this blog started out as a food log for me and a way to hold my self accountable for what I was eating and how I was putting on weight. Now I still have an addiction and I know I will always have one, but I am on the right path to loosing weight again. I have lost some weight I do not know how much because I have not been on the scale in a while but I can feel it and I can see it as well. Great thing. I am really starting to see how when you take out the negative in your life and replace it with positive things and you keep heavenly father in your grasp and lean on him when you feel weak how much of a change it makes in your life. Positive thinking makes for positive actions and changes. So this weeks question is what are positive changes you are trying to make in your life?
